Friday, 27 November 2009

Friday 27th November!

So my day started rather early with a Doctor's appointment. It has been quite hard for me to go to the Doctor's as a few months ago I went in and talked to the Doctor about how down I was feeling. I was put on anti-depressants and advised to attend some counselling. This was really hard for me as I really struggle telling strangers personal information about me. Now I have to constantly go back and discuss my medication and how everything is going.

Today, my appointment had been made with the wrong Doctor so that really panicked me when I initially got there. But in an attempt to be strong and get through all of this I stayed and had the appointment anyway. There was one point during the appointment where all I wanted to do was get up and run out, this was because the Doctor asked me to explain to him why I had initially come in and spoken to the other Doctor. It was bad enough the first time, having to do it again was really horrible.

I explained to the Doctor that I didn't feel as if anything was getting better and that my anxiety had got worse. Currently every time I leave the house my heart starts to beat so fast I can feel it through my chest, my mouth goes dry, my legs and hands start to shake and I become absolutely terrified of being out. It's not so bad if I'm with someone, but when I'm on my own its horrible and has stopped me from leaving the house unless I absolutely have to. I explained this all to the Doctor and he has upped my dosage of anti-depressants and put me on another tablet which should help with all the anxiety feelings. Hopefully things will start to improve now.

The rest of my day was good though, I spent it with Miss Tan! We sat around all day talking, giggling, drinking tea and watching crappy TV. It was really nice. I hadn't seen her much this week so it was really great to spend some time with her.

So that was my day. How was yours? xxx


  1. Have you considered looking into alternative therapies? I don't know whether this will help but a few years ago I was going through a tough time and I startd having acupuncture and found it really really helped with coping. Might be something to consider?

  2. I have briefly thought about alternate therapies, mainly hypno-therapy. I know my Dad used this when he was in hospital. However, when researching it I found it to be rather expensive. But other than that my thoughts have been focused on medical solutions. If you don't mind me asking, what exactly do you feel the acupuncture was good at?

  3. You're right, it is pricey..I started having it from a friend of a friend who was just about to finish her training so it was cheaper for a while thank goodness. I feel like there are lots of different styles/types of acupuncture - wish i knew the name of the one she practiced but it involved a lot of talking. We had a 2 hour chat before she ever used any needles on me, and then every session we'd talk a lot while she was doing her thing and that was a big part of it. I just loved the whole process..I couldn't explain how burning a litle cone of herbs on me, then sticking a pin in changed how I felt in my heart and head..but somehow I feel like it did some good.
    Sorry - I'm not sure that answer was very enlightening!